Notes from a Time Traveller by Elke Stevens

I have landed in the unknown, with a flood of emotions that hold my breath and keep me stiff in my body.
The crossover from one life to the new.
Pain becomes energy, the stiff body wants to move into the land of the overwhelming. Still with one foot in the old and known, afraid to let go, afraid to be free, afraid of the energy, afraid of the feelings and waking up.
looking up at the sky feeling empty and alone hoping the sun will comfort me.
And now I am the fool believing I could run away and keep moving away from this flood of emotions.
Not realising life will catch up with me, like a ghost visiting and scaring the shivers out of you in the middle of the night.
Trying to be loud enough not to feel and hear that inner voice howl.
Suddenly feeling selfish, it feels like the world is crumbling down around me, and it’s only my heart that hurts.
The heart is lonely and afraid in the land of the unknown.
The flood of emotions is the only thing I feel and the only thing that keeps me going.
The little rational voice in my head is screaming to me it’s your ego, my emotion is saying no it is real, and I do think it’s real. What else is there?
A break-up is never beautiful it is what it is, letting go of what was even when it hurts.

And then it is time for a date with Paris.

Elke Stevens 10/05/2018