Notes from a Time Traveller by Elke Stevens

I want to live on my own, I want to feel free in my tears happy and sad.

I want no questions when I’m happy with no reason, I want to dance freely.

But we do say stop crying when we don’t know what someone is experiencing or clueless about the reason.

Leaving a tear at the sight of a beautiful artwork that exhilarates us into emotion.

Why do we feel the need of explanation? Why don’t we leave emotion in value?

Why do we measure the pain when we all have tears in and out?

Why do we feel the need to defend what we feel? Why can’t tears not just be tears anymore? Why can’t laughter not just be laughter?

Why do we have to justify what we feel and why we feel it?

I want to live on my own, I want to be free in my tears happy and sad.

I want no questions when I’m sad, I want to feel and understand, but we all do it, ask the question.

Why are you sad, or give advice on how to feel. But why? Because we do not understand? Because we are afraid that the emotion of an others will effect us?

Are we giving advice because we know better? Do we really know what someone is feeling? What is our motivation when we give advice? Can we be truly honest to our self?

How do we value our feelings and the feelings of others? What are we afraid of when we tell not to feel?

I want to live on my own, I want to be free to feel my tears happy and sad.

I want to feel it, experience it. I want my emotion to be free.

I don’t want to justify my emotion. I don’t want to defend my feeling. I don’t want to compare value of emotion.

My emotion is my feeling, my feeling is my experience, it’s how I live my life to the fullest.

©Elke T.B. Stevens 10/09/2018